I have tried to apologize to him, but I think I do naught but make everything worse. I am no good at these things. There is a maelstrom inside when all I should feel is fortunate for what I have. It's been brewing for many moons and I've tried to make sure no one else is hurt by it but I keep failing.
It's better for me to stay away from everyone. I just didn't want Noctis to blame himself, so I tried apologizing. Had Gaius not arrived I would not have reached out to you. But there is no avoiding Gaius and I had no one else to ask.
I don't want anyone to blame themselves, because all of this is my fault. I need to control myself better. I don't understand why I can't. If this is the person 'Era' is I don't want to be her anymore. I want to go home and be an unfaltering weapon again. Everything was better that way.
I'm sorry.
I'll go prepare things for Gaius now. Thank you for helping me, even after all I've done.
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It's better for me to stay away from everyone. I just didn't want Noctis to blame himself, so I tried apologizing. Had Gaius not arrived I would not have reached out to you. But there is no avoiding Gaius and I had no one else to ask.
I don't want anyone to blame themselves, because all of this is my fault. I need to control myself better. I don't understand why I can't. If this is the person 'Era' is I don't want to be her anymore. I want to go home and be an unfaltering weapon again. Everything was better that way.
I'm sorry.
I'll go prepare things for Gaius now. Thank you for helping me, even after all I've done.