[It takes Regis a while to respond because there is so much in this, and he has so little to use as a frame of reference. He has always just been Regis, the 113th Lucian monarch. When he dies, it's not as if his soul will reincarnate. It will go to wait within the Ring of the Lucii. Perhaps once Eos is healed and the Chosen King's job is done, his soul will go to rest, but until then waiting is his future.
At first, there is part of him that wants to be angry. Yes, it is an honor to be looked upon as a deity, but at the same time, those worshiping those deities do not see the person any longer. They only see the pure symbol they have made that person into. Is that really an honor then? To be remembered, but forgotten at the same time?
Era, despite her uncertainty, seems happy with her new identity, her new title, and it is that knowledge that allows Regis to let go of his anger. For, in the end, had they not agreed that a name can only be an accurate reflection if it feels right?]
And you are still Era. Your understanding of yourself is just more complete now, and you can recognize why certain things always felt right, even when you did not know why they felt right.
Love. It is tricky like that.
There are times when love quiets your fears and pain like nothing else can, and then there are times when it makes you fear if you can survive its loss. It is better to be without? I don't think so. Without love, we cannot truly understand hate. It is just like without joy, we cannot understand sorrow. Even with the pain it has caused you, would you truly rather not have loved Emet-Selch as you did? Would you feel better if Ardbert had not be there for you when you awoke from your sleep?
This is, perhaps, not the best time to ponder such questions. You are tired and your memories are still settling. Such questions require one's full focus to answer and you, my dear, are in no shape to answer them at this moment no matter what guidance I may give you.
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At first, there is part of him that wants to be angry. Yes, it is an honor to be looked upon as a deity, but at the same time, those worshiping those deities do not see the person any longer. They only see the pure symbol they have made that person into. Is that really an honor then? To be remembered, but forgotten at the same time?
Era, despite her uncertainty, seems happy with her new identity, her new title, and it is that knowledge that allows Regis to let go of his anger. For, in the end, had they not agreed that a name can only be an accurate reflection if it feels right?]
And you are still Era. Your understanding of yourself is just more complete now, and you can recognize why certain things always felt right, even when you did not know why they felt right.
Love. It is tricky like that.
There are times when love quiets your fears and pain like nothing else can, and then there are times when it makes you fear if you can survive its loss. It is better to be without? I don't think so. Without love, we cannot truly understand hate. It is just like without joy, we cannot understand sorrow. Even with the pain it has caused you, would you truly rather not have loved Emet-Selch as you did? Would you feel better if Ardbert had not be there for you when you awoke from your sleep?
This is, perhaps, not the best time to ponder such questions. You are tired and your memories are still settling. Such questions require one's full focus to answer and you, my dear, are in no shape to answer them at this moment no matter what guidance I may give you.